Month: February 2019

What stops you from taking action to do the things you KNOW you should and want to do?
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22 months ago I stop waiting. I stopped making decisions according to what I wanted in the moment and I decided to take action to get the things I wanted MOST.
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22 months ago at 44 years old weighing 404.4 lbs I switched to a Clean Eating Lifestyle because I came to believe that changing my food could change my life and that is exactly what I’ve done.
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It is accurate when I say I used my weight as an excuse to not do many … many … painfully, MANY things. But in truth the even bigger issue wasn’t my weight at all, it was my WAIT!
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My excuses, my “reasons” for putting myself and my self-care off were too many to count. All those things I was waiting to resolve, meet, find, experience, break thru, realize or achieve just delayed me from TAKING ACTION!
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I legitimized my delay with many good causes but at a drastic cost: time. 
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Time that I will never get back!
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Time waits for no man, or woman!! No matter how wonderful, powerful or awesome we are, time is one thing we cannot control! It is going to keep marching forward whether today is the day we take action or not!
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So ask yourself?
What is your wait costing you?
Is your WAIT holding you back from going for what you want most?
Is your WAIT stopping you from attending to your health, your dreams, you goals, yourself?
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Only you can CHOOSE to end the waiting and Start your RISE ?You can do it, you just have to choose it and then GET GROWING!!

…ok, well, don’t look at my crotch!!! ??? (watch my video HERE)

I never said I was always going to be eloquent with my words ? One year ago today when this happened I was clearly very excited! It still makes me giddy to watch! I love remembering that first time, “I noticed that” feeling watching it.
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I don’t remember EVER having even the littlest bit of thigh gap; NEVER!!! In fact, what I do remember most as a teenager was having to wear dresses and my thighs rubbing together and getting painfully chaffed red and raw. (Come to think of it, that’s probably another reason why I stopped wearing dresses for decades).
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I also remember my jeans always wearing paper thin or wearing out until the fabric worn through in the thighs because of the rubbing!
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Oh those little things no one ever talks about out loud.
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That thigh gap is a big deal to me. I know some hate it, some want it, some have it, others don’t. But to me the thigh gap is just another NSV of worth, just like fitting into a new size, or an airplane or stadium seat, or running in the 5k or the first time I realized I could jump, or that I could climb sets of stairs without reaching exhaustion, or that I didn’t miss having cake on my birthday or that I wasn’t reaching for popcorn at the end of the day, and I wasn’t skipping as many workouts and I wasn’t speaking as negatively to myself… THEY ALL MATTER!!
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Take notes, journal your process and your progress whether it’s here or somewhere but COUNT UP every single win along the way!!
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You’ve worked hard for them, you deserve to celebrate them ??
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I’d love to hear and celebrate wow of your victories!!! Don’t be shy about shouting them out ???

TRANSFORMATION :: how does one quantify the word? Change, alteration, modification, variation, conversion, revision, amendment, metamorphosis, evolution? (I really like that last one, evolution!!)
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I don’t like labels or having to fit into anyone’s “box”. For those who might be tempted to only see an outward appearance as evidence of transformation, I believe your viewpoint severely limited.
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Body is only one area in which I am making a transformation. And yes, 
I do share a lot of side by side photos highlIghting my extreme weight loss because losing weight IS a HUGE part of my overall pursuit of wellness. (And I’m still shocked I’ve finally figured this out!!)
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But being more than 400 lbs was quite literally killing me in every way: physically, mentally and even spiritually.
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So yes, losing -189 lbs in my forties is something I celebrate with an immense amount of JOY and gratitude. But still weighing 216 lbs means my body, it’s structure, bones, joints, arteries, veins, organs, tissues, depend on my making the best choices I can for them to be as healthy as they can. So again, yes the #s matter as ONE PART of the WHOLE.
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But make NO MISTAKE. My transformation is every bit about mind and soul as body; actually more so. The body will only go where the mind leads it and as such, true wellness then is ultimately a work of heart! ?
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I didn’t use to see myself as brave, determined, courageous or confident, and I definitely did not speak kindly or loving to myself back then. Now, my process, evolution, transformation has allowed me to look back in the lens of love and see her (me) for exactly who she was and still is evolving to become; SHE is where the evolution of my fearlessness, courage, bravery, persistence, dedication, confidence and commitment began to blossom.
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Wherever you are on the spectrum of transformation just remember you are exactly where you should be. Speak kindly and lovingly to yourself, and about yourself and celebrate the eve out of every single baby step at a turtle’s pace of progress that MATTERS TO YOU!!!
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Your transformation is your own, so OWN IT!!!!